i messed up big time...something that happened to me and i expressed it by hurting my friends feelings and her trust in me...hell our friendship is gone...she doesnt want to see me anymore..cant blame her...ive done so much to hurt her..i made her have damp eyes...i can barely stand to even go on.....but im not feeling like i dont deserve it, guess the last thing i can do is give her a present. ive been sitting outside instead because i dont want to hurt her. she called me a liar, and i think shes right, i lie too much, she probably wont even read this hahah...guess the only i can be her friend and make her happy is to stay away from my friends, hell they liked her better anyway hahah. maybe im using this as a way to make people feel sorry for me. please dont i want whoever reads this to think of it as a confession and that i deserve it.